Thursday, October 20, 2005

[ 20102005 1.41am | sigh. ]

i have to take greater care of you. i will not neglect you so much.
i promise to be more consistent.

but only until i tire again...
poor bloggie...

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

[ 04102005 2.40am | i wanted you... ]



The minute I saw you, I couldn't take my eyes off you, cliche as it may sound. Too close, yet too far, I couldn't help the shiver that passed through me... a warm, unfamiliar sensation that made me long for more... There was something arresting about your whole demeanor, the way your clear eyes flicked over me. Such nonchalance...
A hidden, studied once-over.



Your hair, beautiful, silky. Luscious. I longed to reach out my hand and give it a gently ruffle, but was afraid to offend the lady who was obviously enjoying your attentions. The gentle pat on her dainty paw, noticing her every slight twitch...
I tried to be jealous, but realized I was only envious... envious of the affections showered so freely on her, not me. I couldn't be jealous, not when you looked so good with her. But my heart hurt anyway.



Longing, such an empty word, so unable to describe the depth of need I felt within me. To feel you gently moving next to me, the arch of your back beneath my hand... to have you...for my own...



Separated only by self-control, I tried to look away, back to the reality of what I should do. I wanted you. So badly. To hold and pamper, to caress and love.
I failed. I was drawn back to you. Irresistibly. I couldn't reach round the barriers that were keeping us apart from happiness... I couldn't... and I didn't... I cried inwardly as I backed off... knowing it was all for the better...



 



 




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Cos my mum would have killed me for buying a cat. No matter how damn cute it was.