Sunday, November 30, 2003

[ 30112003 2.13am | night. of.tests ]

after 2 weeks of exams, you'dve thought i'd be sick of doing tests. but no. online tests are so much more fun than written examinations.


Tammy, you're a Shark!

Your personality is actually determined by two personality sub-types - your primary, or dominant sub-type, and your secondary sub-type. You are a Shark which means you are a Seeker / Success Your primary sub-type is defined by "Seeker" characteristics and your secondary sub-type is defined by "Success" characteristics.

That means you've got a robust love of life and a killer instinct. Chances are you hate rules, and don't plan on getting old. You're flexible and friendly on top of being innovative and smart. In short, people respect you.

How do we know all this? How do we know you're extroverted and love being in the spotlight? Or that your mantra is "work hard, play hard"? How could we have divined that dull parties make you weep?

Because while you were taking the test, you answered four different types of questions — questions that measured confidence, apprehension, willingness to take risks, and your focus on experience versus appearance — the primary traits that determine your personality. Based on your responses, we determined your personality type, Shark.

why dont you do it too. tell me what other animals there are...
shark... right... that means i have to keep swimming or i'll die. how fun.

Saturday, November 29, 2003

[ 29112003 10.31pm | ITz.OfFICIAL!!! ]

EXAMS ARE OVER!!! hohoho... (no, i'm not trying to be father christmas here...)

went out with my cousin today, after a rather disastrous chem paper -_-. watched duplex. *spoiler alert* do not continue reading if u dun want your movie spoilt.

anyway, dont watch the movie unless you're prepared to be totally irritated and pissed off by the stupid old hag and the people she is in cahoots with. yes. she actually is in cahoots with her son, the housing agent and the policeman. if i ever turn out to be such a conniving old woman, please, i beg you, put me down. mercy killing. i'll forgive you.
then again, i guess the actors were successful, see, one starts to empathise with the CHARACTER. the line between the CHARACTER and the ACTOR is blurred. thats so wrong. typical bourgeoise drama. haha.
ok. ts ppl, dun whack the shit out of me.

i think its full moon. soon? cos people everywhere are going mad!!! i'm so serious about that. or maybe i'm the crazy one... maybe its the after exam high...
anyway, on the mrt, theres this bunch of juveniles on a holiday high who are in the i think i'm damn cool cos i make alot of noise stage. so there they are yelling loudly about terrorists at tampines and dunno wat. everytime the mrt stops at a station, they'll yell loudly out of the mrt so the whole platform turns and looks at them in shocked disgust.
then, theres these two girls, who decide that they are so totally starving that they cant wait 5 more minutes til the mrt stops at pasir ris to eat their very smelly chicken wings. like... huh. great, no wonder the older generations say that kids are getting worse and worse. cos they see all these badly brought up freaks around.

not that older people are much better. have u realised that its the older generation thats giving us singaporeans a bad reputation? they seem to think that they are so big deal that they are allowed to crash around in very crowded buses and mrts and step on everyones toes (literally and figuratively) just so that they can chiong for their seats or to get off the vehicle. yar, and they bump around their huge plastic bags at your knees so that you get blueblacks that stay for weeks after that. they seem to think they are ENTITLED to everything just cos they are older! when was the last time you gave up your seat on the mrt and received a grateful thanks? or when you opened the door for someone and they actually bothered to look you in the eye and smile?

when i was waiting for my dad at the station, after that monster ride... i was impressed by this guy in a car. REALLY IMPRESSED. he put the faith back in me man. amongst all these idiots who park in the middle of carpark exits and park so far away from the kerb so that not even a motorcycle can pass the 2 lane road and leave the engine idling so that all the poor pedestrians get gassed to death, there is this guy, who bothered to turn down his headlights when he swung by to pick a girl up. he realised it was shining into our eyes, and he turned them down. automatically. how nice is that??? he actually BOTHERED, even though he stopped the car for a mere... wat... 30 seconds? to let the girl get on board.

its things like this... people like these... who put the faith back in me.

bumper sticker of the day : " my boss is a jewish carpenter"
[dont get it? feel free to ask =) ]

Friday, November 28, 2003

[ 28112003 10.29pm | check this out ]

i think this person is quite talented. take a look. i personally like the eyes... heh...
check out
i'm particularly taken by montonn jiro...

really do take a look.

[ 28112003 8.50pm | ]

to my dearest cousin : hello u little pipsqueak! thanks for dropping by... drop by more often! and, would you like to go for law bash? its $12. centro. 6th december. get back to me soon ok? you owe me many many clothes too girl... lets go out soon. my exams end tomolo at 3pm! you'll be going on the 3rd right? oh damn. u cant go zouk after that... you're too young. hmm. we'll try to work something out yeah? =)
[ 27112003 11.47pm| Myers-Briggs test ]

yup... this is really me all over again. agree? disagree? let me highlight certain bits...

You're systematic, thorough, painstaking, and hardworking...You get the job done and complete it on are serious and sincere in whatever you work well within a structure...follow the hierarchy...and are particularly strong and careful in keeping track of facts and details...

Cautious...generally seeking to maintain the status are at your best getting things to the right place at the right time.... [err... does that mean i'm gonna run a goods delivery service? like... fedex?]

Serious, responsible and sensible stalwarts of society...trustworthy and honor your commitments...your word is your solemn vow. Practical and realisitic, you have great powers of concentration....hard to distract once you have embarked what you believe is the best course of action.... ..

You like to apply past experience to present can cite accurate evidence to support your're down to earth and seek to do the right thing at the appropriate find it hard to understand people who start an education but don't finish it...

You are diligent and persevering in your efforts...whether it be school, or work, or love...A half-finished job is not a job well probably believe in "Say what you mean and mean what you say." Private by nature, you appear calm in moments of crisis... [ yeah... the power of words... to fam : "when i say yes, i say it because i mean it" ]

You believe in work before pleasure...(gee, like posting before playing the online games on Storm Palace?)..while you don't SEEK leadership positions, you might find yourself in one...[ yeah... i think its called "saboed" ]you build a reputation for reliable, stable and consistent performance...

You like to schedule....even your LEISURE time! [ err... i keep a note on what i'm doing at watever time... i dont fix my leisure times around work. i fix leisure times around other leisure times! ]It helps to you if it has a purpose, even if that purpose is you, love means bigtime commitment, steadiness and behave appropriately for what the situation demands (for example, romantic in the beginning, and so on)..

When you give your word and are ready to settle down, you follow-through... you expect your partners to act in a similar may stay in a poor relationship because of a sense of might have strong but unspoken reactions under that cool facade...

Logical and analytical...quick to point out flaws in other people...when you feel scorned in a relationship, you may not let your partner know it..when it's obvious that the relationship is really over, ending it is just the practical thing to do...

Things to look out for: you could immerse yourself in could become rigid in your ways and be thought of as inflexible... don't forget to compliment people and be so concerned with getting the job might overlook the long-range implications of your actions today...don't get stuck in a rut...recognize your emotions, and the values they represent... others might see you as insensitive...

Also, you're skeptical of new ideas you don't see immediate and practical applications may impose judgments on others...expect others to be the way YOU'd be...become more tolerant of difference between people.


sigh. i dont like tests like these. make me think. now i cant complete my debate...

Thursday, November 27, 2003

[ 27112003 7.05pm | depressed.artists ]

if you had to choose...what would you choose to be?
a goth babe / hunk
a mat rocker, or
a depressed artist?

was at the tv the other night, one of the really really rare times i watch tv... seem to to only do that when i'm in the middle of exams...
ok... anyway, i was at the tv when they showed the advert on piracy. the one with the little kids grumbling about what they want to do. "i've wanted to be a mat rocker all my life" "i have so much angst to express!"
sound familiar?

yup. so what would you choose?
i vote depressed artist.
actually, tough choice... depressed artist or angry gothist.


-ugh- i've just been dragged off to study. get back on this topic when someone's out of my house and cannot force me to study... grr.
[ 27112003 5.26am | lizardlets ]

my room has recently been infested with animals. other than the 2 fighting fish that swim around at the foot of my bed there have been a couple of rats and many lizardlets.

the lizardlets are actually very cute! i'll be slacking at my com in the middle of the night and a lizard or two will happily drop from the ceiling and land on me or somewhere in the vicinity.

i never knew lizardlets were nocturnal til i started staying up all night. interesting no?
[ 27112003 6.31am | yay ]

ok. my day's mischief is up! managed to get his pic on. haha... pretty?
oh yes... i'm particularly intrigued by this pair of eyes

[ 27112003 5.06am | prettee~* ]

haha... such an act cute title.

eh eh... hideaki is so prettee... help. tell me he isnt.
stole a pic using my phone at this jap ppl shop in heeren. the lady scolded me, but it was worth it! [ok, i dunno why i cant post the pic direct... so u all gotta settle for the link.]

found this blog around. think it would be interesting to keep my eye on it.

right. i have just realised that it is morning cos kiat just smsed me from camp.
"morning... i hope you are sleeping already..."
"huh? its morning?"

my present time table is currently screwed up. i think i'm living at the wrong end of the world.
if there is no school / exams / whatever crap : wake up at 12pm. lunch. sleep til dinner. dinner. study / waste my time online. sleep at 6am. or 7.
if there is school... -_- : wake at 7am. exam watever. back home after lunch. sleep til 12am. dinner. sleep at 6am.

a week to my sister's wedding! i'm starting to think about it a little more... gosh. why wait til a week b4 to think about it... last minute instincts lah. cant be helped. honed by exams.
[ 27112003 2.31am | -snip- ]

And before that, I was getting over my first love. It was a difficult experience. I didn't want to be emotionally involved with anyone ever again, which explains my wild streak. That type of pain is much harder to recover from compared to a broken arm or headache. I wanted men to be a commodity to me instead and disposable, and I wanted to be free of any strings. I wanted to emerge out of relationships unscathed and ready to move on. I didn't want to wear my heart on my sleeve any longer, for fear it would get stomped on again.

I don't know him well enough to trust that I'm not just another girl to him. However, it's hard to keep my guard up around someone I find so arresting...

found that interesting? want to see more? go to Uberture. an online mag my friends part of.

anyway. after that advertisement...
i... cut my hair! haha... went mad todae after ts paper. was walking around town with fir when we both suddenly decided to cut our hair at The Scene. i think i look a little strange now... guess i need some time to figure out how to wear it.

one more paper... sigh. on the last day possible. saturday.

what happened to my music?

Tuesday, November 25, 2003

[ 25112003 4.36am | A.Mth.2.Xmas ]

my exams will be over in 4 days... come on... you can do it!

anyway, spent my last few hours fooling around with the layout of my site... got a messageboard! thanks to shao's site. heh... i think it looks quite interesting... but it kinda does away with the need for my buzzes things...



why on earth am i bothering with this when i have an exam tomolo?
slap me again pls!
[ 25112003 3.46am | Hari.Raya! ]

to the malays! =) have fun!

i kinda got my archives up, somehow, they arent really linked to the particular date. so, for now at least, you will just be redirected to the main archive page. well. best i can do for now, i think i accidentally screwed up the script while trying to do funny things with my template.

daniel > hey, you dan? the fella i re-met at expo while i was studying for my A's ? if u are, then yeah, i remember u! how'd u manage to find my blog btw?

lydia > is that your real name? cos i'm not sure if i remember a lydia in jc! *paiseh* gonna need more intro from you!

[ 25112003 3.16am | disastrous ]

last paper was on friday. friday, came back, slept. saturday and sunday were spent ill. so sleep all day. next paper, monday. how to do? never study. why? spent the weekend sleeping. so how? walk out early lor! hahaha... give me a slap please!

anyway, just added some music! whee... let me know, if ure feeling kind, if u can hear it. =)
write more laytuh-

Saturday, November 22, 2003

[ 22112003 6.43pm | Point.Of.Information ]

ezlink cards can still be used after going through a full wash cycle in the washing machine.

interesting no?

Thursday, November 20, 2003

[ 20112003 11.14pm | mAdNeSs!!! ]

think i'm gonna go nuts soon. i'm really not made for studying! not cut out to be an academic. i cant believe it. i still have a week to go of exams k. a WEEK. beat that. its as bad as a's. drag for so long!!! grrr.
eek. having that pain in my chest that i always get during exam time.
[ 20112003 8.37pm | remind me!! ]

to fix my links
add friends links
to study for my exams. damn.


Saturday, November 15, 2003

[ 15112003 12.43am | questions? ]

life never serves you what you expect her to. i made life a female cos females are more unpredictable. what with pms and menopause and watever. stereotype perhaps, but well. serves my purpose.
for example, my ps essay. i didnt work at it, i believe alot of the ppl who got b's worked much harder at their essay then i did at mine. yes, sorry, but i'm still hung up over that.
choices, decisions. how would you know that you made the right one. is there even a right choice to make? what is right? what may seem right to you... may seem wrong to someone else!
there are somethings about this life... that we will never be clear about... not until we meet out Maker face to face i guess...
sometimes, i just wish i could see what my future will be like... i'm of the school that believes my future has all been planned out see... then i'll know which path to take... which decisions to make... what to do...
even so... how would we know which means lead to the end... maybe there are more paths to the final destination...

screwed up mind. i feel like matrix.
bloddy second guessing.
(bloddy??? haha...)

Thursday, November 13, 2003

[ 13112003 7.43pm | alone. ]


She sat me down and took me by the hand
She said I’ll try to make this painless if I can
She is sorry and as she began to cry
Couldn’t look me in the eye
I said
baby, let me just save you the time

I can see where this is going
Tears will fall and hearts will break
Love’s a game we all must play
So dry your eyes and be on your way
As for me…
I’ll be ok.

Well I thought we were the perfect match
It’s so hard to say that now without a laugh
There was never, ever such a thing
Not as far as I can see
Now that all of love’s such misery

You can see where this is going
Tears will fall and hearts will break
Love’s a game we all must play
So dry your eyes and be on your way
As for me,
I’ll be ok

I can see where this is going
Tears will fall and hearts will break
Love’s a chance we all must take
So dry your eyes and be on your way
As for me,
I’ll be ok.

Got my friend to pick up my political science essay from school. Thanks fir! Told me I got an A for it! (he better not be bluffing me… or I’ll poke his eyes out…) unbelievable… I really expected to get some shit borderline mark cos, in the first place, I didn’t understand a thing about public or private space… and my lecturer (shall refrain from ruining his reputation by putting his name up here) really can’t lecture for nuts. Thank goodness I have a good tutor… or I’ll just die. Email also never reply. Too much.

Theatre studies practical exam (12.11.03)
It was really quite fun preparing for it… however, think we didn’t research enough into the background of the play. That was our downfall…
Really pei(4) fu(2) the examiners though… they really know their stuff and they really can act… grone. Don’t ask why I know.
I think acting is something I could like very much… however, I refuse to direct! Unless I write the script myself. The interpretation is just too heavy a burden. And I’m way too inexperienced.
Fam : feeling sia!!


I think I shall take muffin out for a walk tonight… feel like it… feel like getting out of the house again… on the other hand… I’m feeling sleepy… which is really strange considering I’ve slept for 11hours in the last 24hours.
Blogger is down, so I shall have to wait til the sites back up before I can publish this… how irritating.
Kenn : u dun understand man… this really sucks… if I chill out anymore I better be prepared to chill for the rest of my life. I can’t flunk my sem!!!

think theres alot about school work and stuff... academic pursuits have been on my mind too much. apologies!
[ 13112003 1.42am | soulmate~* ]

"you were supposed to be with me - for so long! you're part of me, the part i've always vaguely missed. you were supposed to be around, helping out, picking me up when i fell down. watching my back, listening to my stories. understanding things that i wouldn't want to tell other people. loving me when i'm stupid. giving me something to take care of and be good to, the way the goddess meant women to do."

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

[ 12112003 1.29am | knn ]

so busy so busy...

every day, sitting in the sun... baking myself...
in preparation for a 20minute exam.

freezing in the libraries while studying for essays and mcq's.

stoning on the train on 1hr journies.

cannot cannot.

have to yell out some expletives soon.

will probably get struck by lightning.

Sunday, November 09, 2003

[ 09112003 3.06pm | ]

as you can see, i'm still rather obsessed with quotes from the matrix.

presently wondering what modules to take next semester... whether to take 3 geog modules... sigh. then, i suddenly remember that i might just fail this sem. then i won't need to worry about next sems modules...

made a bad choice of modules this sem... nothing interests me seriously except the geog exposure. but practically everything they are going through now has been taught in jc. ts is really fun too, but way to much theory... grose. o, the changing landscapes module aint too bad either... cos its geog based i guess... but ps and chem can really just go and jump into my tau huay.

shit shit... exams are in a weeks time. haha... big joke... i'm still adjusting to being in uni... and whee. my exams are here already... $%!#$

Friday, November 07, 2003

[ 07112003 1.17am | woah. ]

check out this site. its got a much much much much better argument for the theme of religion in matrix then i have tried to convey...
[ 07112003 12.34am | Not impossible. Inevitable. ]

as with my kill bill entry, those of you who havent watched The Matrix Revolutions, please bugger off if you dont want me to spoil your show.

basically, i felt that the theme didnt run as deep in this one as it did in the other two. this one was more of an action movie with the regular romance theme. however, there are issues that you can pick up from it.
to me, the religion theme ran quite strong in this one... there was a lift button that read "hell". (for those who;ve watched, its the lift which they take to go see the Frenchman) hell... i guess it symbolises the real world, especially when "viewed" through Neo's second sight. (ie when he was blinded) it was all firey and stuff... zion would thus be the realm of the "enlightened", the people who have come to know the truth. the machine world is, i guess, heaven.
then, the source, the large ugly machine thing, it said "it is done" somehow thats very... crucifixion kinda thing... especially after neo sacrificed himself to bring peace between the machine world and zion. (the mediator for you?) even the name zion is Blibical.
back to matrix 1, the red pill and the blue pill... isnt the red pill like the forbidden fruit? it offered knowledge... knowledge beyond what a normal human was supposed to know...
free will. the oracle advocated free will.

do you believe that shows are left for you to fill in the gaps yourself? that the cinematic text is troue? (nope, thats not a spelling error) that you are free to interpret it however you want, hence everyone will walk out of the cinema with different interpretations of the same thing?
i think i'm having too much theatre studies...

and somehow the idea of a deus ex machina keeps coming into my mind... not sure where it can be applied... to neo perhaps?

Thursday, November 06, 2003

[ 06112003 2.14am | ]

silly ruth. shall not explain further.

just finished up the last part of my project essay. so now all we have to do tomorrow is cut words off and to do a conclusion.
this is gonna be a busy week... i dont know how i'm gonna find the time to study... everyone says first year is the time to pull your CAP real high... but i dont think so... its gonna pull be down to australia man... doesnt help that i'm doing all kinds of subjects that i'm not interested in, but forced to do.
got strange anonymous phone calls todae. called back, only to find out that they were from people looking for shen. shen, has not been going for tutorials and everyones getting worried cos they dont know what happened to her. she doesnt pick up phone calls or answer smses. so what do they do? they call me. gr8. people get paid to do what i do for free k! haha...

Wednesday, November 05, 2003

[ 05112003 12.44am | kill.bill ]

*warning* do not read if u havent watched the movie. i'll spoil it for you.

excellent show, in my opinion. did really good spoofs of other movies like matrix and bruce lee things. it was like happy tree friends on the big screen! excellent for a few laughs, a few screams and tons of drooling over lucy liu and her female bodyguard, gogo yubari. (whom i'm still trying to figure out... cant decide if shes actually not bad, or if its certain angles that flatter her... kinda looks like a man...)
the blood was really hilarious man... simply tons of it spurting out like shower heads. and i really think the director meant it to spurt out that way. to make it ridiculous... to subvert the goriness (is there such a word?) and make it funny. if it were on stage, i'd call it brecht.
funniest snippet : uma thurman spanking the young boy with the flat of her blade
"say"-est moment : lucy liu whacking the head off mr tanako (??) at the meeting. or her throwing that dart thing through the wall... almost any scene of her in action... except when she died. the way she died sucked. -_-

the ending was one of those that made you feel like you wasted your money watching the whole thing. but it'll make you watch the sequel! damn irritating type...

btw, i really dont think the show deserved its RA rating. the blood was not even realistic. you have to see it to understand. and it was purposely meant to be that way. there were plenty of bad words, sure, but there were no sex scenes. none. not even of anyone kissing. ok, fine. the only sex scene was when young o-ren-ishi (thats her name rite) was sitting astride a paedophilically - inclined father/mother killer who was clad in underwear. (how on earth do you spell that word... i've suddenly become dyslexic) and the focus was so not his tendencies, it was on o-ren-ishi's bloodlust. revenge lust. whatever you want to call it.

one of my "good days" when i'm really tired out. so tired i may just konk off infront of the computer without brushing my teeth. ok. fine. exaggerating. one of the days when i'm actually looking forward to lying on my cool covers... about 5 hours of ts prac rehearsals... talking, going out... movie. good day. =)

Monday, November 03, 2003

[ 03112003 10.59pm | *wHiNe* ]

busy day. been studying for the last couple of days. yes. i do study. now and then when the need arises. had 2 tests. at least i passed one of them...
just been summoned to lend my name for ivp sailing. wonder if i can commit to both floorball and sailing? sounds tough. will love sailing again though... wind and salt drying out my eyes... stinging rain or baking sun... falling asleep in the cockpit while waiting for races to start, getting bread soggy and salty throwing it from boat to boat... dripping rain soaking my tell tales. tell tails? mud at the top of my mast from turtle-ling... the spray on a fast reach the pain on a closehaul, the tension and blue-blacks on an unstable run... getting cleated and boomed. dagger board bruises... sand abrasions, peeling sunburns... awful tanlines...

times i miss.
memories i love.
pain i enjoyed.

Saturday, November 01, 2003

[ 01112003 11.48pm | deep-pressure ]

sister's dog died. max. that greedy thing ate itself to death. literally.
this dog was sent to live at her bf's house (sorry... finace) cos they have 3 dogs and my mum didnt want to house so many. so we kept 2 here and sent max over. his parents spoil their animals... give him anything and eveything to eat. and max doesnt seem to know his limits. he steals whatever food he can get his paws on. so, last night, he ate 1kg, seriously, 1 kilogram, of dried sweet potatoes. he bloated up so much but didnt appear to be in discomfort. so they just let him be. this morning, he was dead. just like that. apparently he was breathing shallowly, but i think he was roughly gone when they found him. his mum said that "max [was] waiting to see [my sister] then he'll let go"

i liked max alot... much better than that silly yap of a chihuahua (raisin) or muffin. although i am quite fond of muffin. but i think i'm too immune to pets dying. kinda... too used to it. maybe ii'm just apathetic. if i feel sad, its cos i feel bad for my sister and cos the way max died was really... dumb.

so ppl, dont eat 1 kg of dried sweet potatoes k. its bad for life.
o, max was a golden retriever. he is presently 2 feet under my mango tree at the end of my garden...
beautiful dog. posed for quite a few photo shoots...
guess i like big dogs. small dogs have this really irritating high pitched thing about them... and they always get under your feet and then yelp the house down making everyone rush sympathetically to its rescue. like my ex-neighbour's pomenarian. it was so DUMB. they opened their auto-gate one day and it happilly charged out and banged into a car that was passing by. as it, it banged into the side of the car, not got run over by the car. hahaha...
[ 01112003 12.22am | scrut-up ]

ever has that inexplicable urge to sit on your roof and yell so loudly that the whole neighbourhood wakes up?
i'm feeling that now... i'm feeling it so bad.
[ 31102003 11.25pm | woes. ]

wow. i have the kind of face that makes people think i'm really really short. kiat thought (before he knew me) that i was shorter than eva, about ruth's and dong's height. thanks man! thats like... 150+ or less. thats mini. (sorry gals... hehheh...)

my aunty is ASC 4. you know... the active senior citizen nominee thing. vote for her!! sms "ASC 4" to 93678728 NOW!! voting is closing soon. she the stroke association chairperson. =)

i just spent a large bomb today... quite heart pain. oh well... i havent been spending, figured i better pamper myself before i like... get cancer and die or something.

my practical test date is on april fools day. gosh. thanks man. somehow the date doesnt feel right...

let me share the halloween poo website with all u ppl! its so damn funny. and so damn cute! and it really sounds like me!

tomorrow feels like a running day... but my shoes are breaking down... nvm. i shall listen to myself and just run anyway.