i walked back today with a fantastic smile on my face. pretty impressive, if you consider that:
i have work the next day,
just rushed over from handover from the previous staff,
didnt have dinner,
made ice go home earlier without me,
wasted money at lan,
probably will get nagged at by parents tomorrow for getting back late,
was cheated by ANT and PINKSHEEP, (i SERIOUSLY feel cheated.)
had to take midnight cab back alone. (yes cass, i spend 20 each time i have to go back late from eg! cos i live at www)
but seriously, i couldnt help the smile. i think i have my Hope back.
but i have to epi in more. cos hope's not gonna be enough.
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so... of all the people who i named to do the Weird survey, probably only pinksheep didnt reply. i wouldnt know, cos her blog is still locked. wonder what emo stuff she's hiding there.
and tml's a tawning session at bryan's. =D gals night out ftw. with a few extra guys around.
and i so know i'm gonna get scolded tml for sleeping late when he sees this post.
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i'm re-addicted to naruto, unfortunately. i think its because i have cleared all my bleach, and i'm just aching for more. so i have to substitute it with naturo. at least most of the fillers have been cleared... jiayou torrents! quickly download!
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i was ordered by ant to talk about our mym escapades. mym being an international online dota compie. we've cleared the regional stages i think, together with
xqr (d4rkw1sH , Alan , Ray , mArtelLx , CM , linda , Ruby , Lux),
Team Mi2 (slack-, dotrk, ahleng, jiabaoZ, WoShiCloud),
Micronology (zx, hy, dk-mag3, bouncy, queen)
so, fyi, this is my team, named after yours truly
Team tttt: AntSharK, iceiceice, riSen, ToFuBoi, furryfish, nutz
so, risen happens to be jovi aka Rf|true and nutz is warnutz. both of etny fame.
if anyone is wondering how i got into the team of all stars, i can honestly say, i dunno. just that i came back from lunch one day and saw a note on my msn from ice "go join team tttt, pword is ___ "
i'm like... har? and since he was the one who signed up a mym account for me in the first place, i didnt even know what password or user name he used. so he or ant did it all for me.
i have been fortunate enough to play the first 2 rounds with them...
first round was against gamersinc alpha.
now mym has a bunch of curious rules, one of them being, only one aegis per hero is allowed. other than that, they have rules about backdooring that singapore doesnt. and it is interesting to see how things work out with their version of how dota should be played, it is also interesting to see how the players adapt (or do NOT adapt) to the rules.
one such player would be our very own tofuboi who happily bought 2 aegis on his pudge. as ant mentioned on the asterisk zenith blog,
"It has never ceased to amaze me how you can pick up your ally's ironwood branch in base, drop it 1 second later, and get disqualified.
I'm looking forward to the day where someone gets DQed for speaking in all chat.
For the record, I've always maintained the stand that DQing for something that doesn't affect the outcome of the game even one bit is stupid beyond measure. It's just that after hearing about an incident where someone passed Roshan's Aegis after Roshaning and getting DQed, I realised that I didn't even question the circumstances and accepted without question that the marshalls actually WILL DO those things without question since they have done it so often, and that's when I figured that something was definitely wrong."
under any circumstance, regardless of the fact that we raxed gamersinc's mid and bottom already, we should have been DQed without a second thought. this is how i have always played the game, this is how i have seen rules being kept, this is how i have been taught. mym however, granted us a RM the next day. and we went down to lan for the game. although it gave us another chance to prove we were the better team, it was another hour of enduring tofu's pudge. although, admittedly, it was alot better than the day before. sadly, i cant say the same about my vs.
so, we win the game pretty easily, ice was just mia farming with his doom, and ant was bouncing around with his antchantress. jovi's sf more or less made up for my indecent vs playing... so i guess it was ok. (mian qiang...)
round 2 was against :D~~~!, also known as knightmare and the players were all ex-rEv0 people whom we all knew... eter, puresoulz, pig, retard.. and nicnic.
nothing very memorable about the match except that i was just being a pretty useless WL all game long... i'm having a useless streak and i need a bout of usefull-ness to kick me out of this rut. but its not happening. so... nevermind.
as i said, not very memorable, just that ant was antchantressing again, ice was bear who refused to get threads, jovi was sf again i think, and tofu didnt play. in his stead was warnutz using qop.
warnutz has superior dont-aim-me aura. he can have 500 hp, but the pugna will decrep blast me and the sniper will get a snipe in when i'm decreped. its a blessing that i can cast shadow word on myself when i'm decpred.
jovi and warnutz can walk together to bait and only jovi will get bolted by zeus. lol.
as i said, superior dont-aim-me aura. I ALSO WANT.
its a pity that we havent played any overseas teams... that would have been very eye-opening. next round is against micronology, i believe. and i don't think i'll be playing that round. cos its time to let warnutz tahan tofu's nonsense!
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expectations.
they can make or break you.
my expectations are way too high when they shouldnt be. but i can't help it.
"aim for the moon, so that if you fall, you fall among the stars."
so, ok, i'll try to understand that you have off-days, even though the concept of YOU having an off-day is just... impossible to grasp. i guess i hold you to higher expectations than i hold others.
i expect so much from myself too. maybe thats why things aren't working. just too highly strung to do anything properly.
and anyway, off-day just seems so ME. and not something for you.
useless_
must become useful.
