[ 29062008 3.49am | /wrist. ]

i have to stop this emoing or i'm going to kill myself soon. willy, lets go drink.
actually... the office bar, named 802C (pantone! haha) is opening on friday. HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!
but i will be in paris.
hmm... it would be nice to see the city with (more) grown up eyes. i believe the last time i was there was when i was in sec school...
yes, we did the whole Eiffel Tower, Arc de Triomphe, Louvre thing... my family and i...
the best thing i like about paris, and london actually, is probably the pigeons. they're really fat and juicy looking... and they eat out of your hand. i like birds.
(stop being jaded tammy... but damn the exchange rate is NOT FUN)

and. its just so scary. the loading screen of dota 652d has eswc masters of paris on it.
4days before i fly.

*decides to continue training up.*

***

and part of the reason why i'm still awake, is cos of Hime who jio-ed me out on a date today. and i succumbed to a cup of white chocolate mocha from starbucks (dawnsheep intro to me one. gg its nice. i like.)
so i'm still freaking high.
also, i had a record 14 hrs sleep last night. thats about... 4-5 times more than i get on an average weekday.

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damn. it must be full moon or something. there's like mass weirdos out there.
hime and i walked into evo, and almost immediately, this guy sitting by the door was like, "o its FURRYFISH"
i turned, thinking it was someone i knew... but... i've never seen the chap before man...
he goes on saying something like, "o, she brought her teammate also, hime right"
right about this point, hime an i are exchanging nervous looks, and we practically dash out.
i mean... c'mon, he doesnt make any effort at all to conceal the fact that he's yelling to a whole row of guys about us. no matter how thick skin we are, i think its also not thick enough.
*poison skin + mana shield + hood of defiance please.

something else happens at the busstop at simei mrt later on (when i am alone! HELP), but i wont repeat it for fear of being accused of being bhb. and also because i think its so not true.

***

someone recently mentioned that i can actually be very different from how i seem.
my normal self vs my solving problems self, can almost be classified as 2 different people. sometimes i get too no-nonsense i guess.
as i said to moumouren, i have to be more of a girl.
perhaps.

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i was asked. are you afraid of being alone? what if you want to talk to someone?
i gave it more thought.
i'm fortunate to have people to talk to when i need to. and they're always there for me. in return, i'm there for them, as long as i'm not dying on my bed or something drastic.
i dont give good advice, mostly. but i can offer 2 listening ears.

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and i realised its been such a long time since i went to town to like... hang out. hang out meaning, chill and not really have plans to do anything. previously i was always rushing to go get this or that.
i think, normally, kembangan is the furthest west i go.man i'm an east-side nerd.

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you seem to know what i'm thinking.
you seem to know my fears.
i shouldn't tell you so much, it might backfire on me.
寂寞让你更快乐

*emos to death