[ 28102004 5.46pm | taking a break ]

yup, a short break from the essays. i still have a few hundred words to go. -_-
pondering... does it sound weird to say that i like birds?
many find that a really strange choice cos they find birds impersonal and... well... un-cuddly. i'd like to dispell that myth. if you ever have a chance to obtain a baby budgerigar (budgie), one so young that you have to hand feed it mush, you'd realise that birds can be extremely endearing. if they're imprinted on you... ok. let me define imprinting first. when animals are young, it looks to its parents to learn what it's kind looks like. cos it cant see itself. hence, it will start to believe that you are one of its kind, and treat you likewise, ie, with jealousy, with love etc.
ok. so, if u get an imprinted budgie, you would definitely change your mind about birds being impersonal and un-cuddly.
my own budgie (she expired a while ago... to my grief...) was delightful. she would roll over on her back and kick around... she would snuggle under my hand when it was resting idly on the table... she would run to stand on my foot when she was on the floor and wanted to be picked up... she would nibble at my earrings and ears as she sat on my shoulder... sometimes preening my hair for me... she would let me stuff her head into my mouth as i pretended to eat her... she would let me stroke and preen her head with my fingers... she used to have the free run of my house... run, because her wings were clipped. a preventive measure in case something startled her and she flew off in a fright and lost her way...
sigh.

[ 25102004 2.57pm | sun after the rain ]

literally, and figuratively. after pouring for the last few days, some sunlight is filtering through the clouds and heating up my tiny room.
i can't say i'm happy about that.

but i am happy about my present work load. at least i only have 4 essays due now. and only 2 that i have to write from scratch. actually, one's in jap, which aint that bad...

oh well. so much about work.

was thinking about it... have you ever hung up the phone on someone?
probably... yes, right?
but have you slammed down the phone on anyone?

in this age of mobile phones... slamming down phones is no longer possible... especially not when most people carry $300+ phones around... (hurhur)
plus, most home phones nowadays are the press button to hang up type. so there really aint such a thing as slamming down a phone on someone. [pls, no corny comments about how you can physically injure someone with a phone...]
even if you're really angry and you want to make a statement by hanging up noisily, the most a phone nowadays can muster is a soft beep.

anyway, back to work. expect lots of entries from me cos its exam time... and i'm stuck in hall trying to focus. (yeah right... with LAN internet...)

[ 21102004 12.49am | i'm back! ]

contrary to what "me" thinks, i have not abandoned my blog! i've just been really really busy... i just finished writing about 3000 words today and was trying to chill out and play warcraft when i discovered that sharing bandwidth with a block of PGP people is not conducive... i got kicked from dota. anyway.
who is "me"?

before i forget, happy birthday to dong! :)

for those who don't know, *ahem*weiming*ahem*, i have moved into hall. pgp. my present room is the size of my wet kitchen which is pathetic and claustraphobic. but its mine. and my LAN has finally been fixed. so now, i have internet in my room!

essay season is coming to an end, tml will mark the death of 5000 words, and friday will give me one more opportunity to rid myself of 1000 more words.
after that, i have 2000 words due on monday, 2000 more on thursday and about 800 on friday.
i was just complaining to my sister when she started counting the words she had to turn in all the time. she does about... i dunno... 6 articles or so a month, each about 11000 words. haha... complaining to her made her depressed.

i have a headache and was having cramps, but my excitement at having internet after not having it for 3 days just overwhelmed it all...

who is "me"??

***
anyway. its been a reflective couple of days...

there are people who look really good, or at least not bad in real life, but really really suck in photos. unphotogenic. but i dont really understand why... maybe they should learn to be more natural in front of cameras...
on the other hand, there are the really really weird looking ones... (like the U2 lady model... with the really intense birdlike stare...) and kesse (america's top model season 1... not sure if thats how you spell her name) who actually do photograph really well...

its all about angles i guess. people who look good in real life should work on looking good in front of cameras.

plus... i'm thinking about packages and selected features.
i'm a legs person. legs are THE thing man... because they are more genetic than they are doctored or excercised. gorgeous legs are... impossible to obtain... unless you're born with them.
but i'm a very face person too. you can have a really great bod, but if only your back view, or your neck down is worth looking at... well... then its not very worth it...
bods... are controllable... they can be excercised and plastic surgeoned into shape... faces are best naturally sculpted.
oh well.
half dead ramblings from a big fat ugly pig.
(so shoot me if i'm feeling bloated and puffy.)

o, dont worry, this isnt what i was really reflecting about that made my past few days so reflective.
i'm not that obsessed yet.

[ 07102004 11.26am | old ]

a year older, a year unhappier.