[ 17012006 3.05am meltz- ]

Don't you understand that everything I do, I do it for you?

Anything that might be special in me, is you.

-ethan hawke as finn bell in great expectations.

a quote that i've been having at the edge of my mind, but kinda not remembering where it came from. til i decided to go look it up online. one of my old favourites. still love it. fits the movie and that scene so darn well. and reminds me of days gone by...

[ 15012006 12.36am love sick. totally. ]

after 2 weeks of waiting and pining... i finally got my hands on my beloved, badly missed razer diamondback plasma limited edition mouse. omgosh... the feeling... of that familiar sleek body and rubber rails and buttons... sliding over my steel pad... was just... out of this world. i cant believe how much i've missed it... compared to my razer-steel combi, the intellimouse explorer on barracuda is like moving rocks over concrete floor... omgosh...

it makes me wanna game all over again... it makes me wanna compete and win... all over again.

i'm so in love with my mouse.

problem is, it isnt the same mouse as before... they couldnt figure out wat was wrong with it... so they just gave me a new one...
ugh. the familiar old scratches... and kinks in the wire... and slightly flattened feet... i miss them all...

but its ok i guess... i still love it anyway.
mousie~*

[ 13012006 6.16am omgosh! ]

i dunno wats up with my sleeping times. last night i slept at 11. woke at 5. ok, thats like... not very strange, until you know that i've been tawning all night and sleeping from like 10am to 7pm.

on a happier note, my mouse is ready for collection! for those that i havent grumbled to, my razer diamondback plasma died on me! during egames compie... but somehow revived for a few more days before expiring totally. sent it to the hq to get fixed and i've been waiting anxiously for news. they like finally called me yesterday to go pick it up! I MISS MY MOUSE SO MUCH!!!!!!! i miss it so much that i havent been wanting to play lan or games at home. i mean... wats an intellimouse explorer on a barracuda, comapred to a razer on a steelpad...

but. they couldnt fix it or something... so they are like... giving me a new one... =(

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nus compie postponed to the 13-15 feb. hmm. good. maybe now i'll actually feel like training cos my mouse is up!

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i'm back in hall, to shit connections which keep dcing me from bnet and jerky LC games. oh well. u cant have everything right?
missing my desktop... and broadband...

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its been a freezing week. a frowny week. a confusing week. a week of tawning and walks. a week of school. SOME school, at least...
i'm out of contact with some ppl, who i should go and look for and catch up with.
theory "emotions are limited. u use them up in one aspect, and u have none for others." applicable when emotions are needed by different situations, concurrently.

[ 01012006 9.41am byebye 2005 ]

this has gotta be the most unglam picture of year 2005.
YUNA!

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anyway, 2005 has been interesting, esp the last month or so of compies. first time getting so far in a compie... egames, with a good team. getting trashed first thing this morning in the new year by sacrilege, various other online matches, intra-clan rEv0 tourney and lan outings, or outings which were not supposed to be lan outings, but became lan outings. *lol*

results were passable, pulled my CAP up a tad bit.

regrets? none really... egames compie, perhaps.

resolutions? to live a happier life, its all about the mindset!

as i feel at the end of every year / start of a new one, time passes too quickly. its so scary. after a while, they just seem to get gobbled up and disappear, or appear in white hairs.

which is why i'm gonna dye my hair black!

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been in the mood for a long quiet walk... the urge to contemplate and stroll is... overwhelming me once again... on another note, while most ppl are dreading going back to school, i'm not really that unhappy about it. staying in hostel does have its perks. including a cheaper cab fare from town!

also, another compie coming up on the 14th jan. some nus dota compie. which i will be entering with aZ. better start my training back up soon...

but i miss my mouse too much... i'm super mouse-sick. i'm counting the days til i next see it...

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oo... and by yuna's request, the most laughed at pic of 2005 is

ice digging his gosu nose. lol?